3.06.09

emotional rollerfuckingcoaster - that is what i would call the last 48 hours.  wednesday, i found out that i have a d in math.  this is like, beyond upsetting seeing as how i spend countless hours every week doing math homework, studyuing, going to tutoring, consukting with my professor and really just going that extra mile.  i cannot seem to do well on these exams.  for all of those that know how santa clara works, every class has a prerequisite, or that is at least how it seems.  so in order for me to take psych 40, i have to take math 6.  this is my second time taking this class so i do not know what i am doing wrong or what else i can do to maximize my efforts and do any better than how i am doing right now [dip on the rollercoaster].  originally, i thought that i might have to take math 6 a third time [rollercoaster going upside down], and the thought of that was laughable because that would mean that i would be spending the equivalent of a full academic year in a class that is supposed to be about a quarter long.  i was then informed by my academic advisor that as long as i receive a 60%, i can move on to psych 40 [a little bumpy] although i do not want a 60% for a class that i have been busting my ass in.  

today, i had a group project.  group projects are bullshit because no one ever does everything they are supposed to do and someone always falls short.  so i was shitting bricks until about 20 minutes before class when everything seemed to come together.  then i got a package from my mom with an unexpected note and gift.  somehow, getting something from my mom made everything better [the fun part of the rollercoaster].  i am just really looking forward to the weekend, the next 2 weeks flying by, marilena coming to see me & driving home together.